Probably the last thing i write here. it seems that i am being censored for some off reason. since when was freedom of speach cheating but ok. I aint goin say this is the last thing i post but more than likely it looking like that. Seems like no matter what i do someone got a problem wit it. mother, sister, girl, the cat, dog, dishwasher. but ok. trryin to enjoy college it just toook a plunge for the worse lookin more like hell but yall enjoy college.

Damn man this wont never happen again like this. ima make sure i update this at least every other day not every three days hehehehe.

Not that anyone cares and reads this but hmm lets see.

MONDAY

My pops and I drove up to UMBC to move me in. i didnt realize how much shit i had till i actually had to unload it. mannn i had two girls, my pops, me, and two other dudes helpin take shit into my dorm. i drove the truck up and my pops throw his car up. so that was alot of stuff. soo i got it all moved in and everyone seemed to flock to my room.  I was like damn wassup nig. a how you doin girl aint seen u in a while.  white people introducin themselves to me cuz of my system on my computer. talkin bout i can hear that on the first floor wow.  so im chillen had to put some gogo on to represent or whatever. so once my roomate got in we ordered pizzas from popa johns and watched Baby Boy, it was like 5 of us total in there just chillen, that is one of the funniest movie ever. You really wouldnt think that till you watch it over and pay close attention to what they be sayin. 

later on that night i had me some barcardi silver den i went up to my friends apartment and had me a cup of vodka and hawaiana punch.  keeping in mind that this is college and the legal drinking age is 21. This xanga is for ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY. Meaning it aint that serious if i write i had some of this or that.  Anyway we chilled up there for a sec den i came back down to my dorm. Saw my buddy candis was online and she had been doin some thinken bout our relationship aka friendship if you read u know that im always scared bout cheating cuz rollas will give it to you and be all friendly but more important i dont wanna lose friends or have friendships go to far. so remeber she down in hampton she just said that she thought we should not talk on aim no more maybe a hi. i was like got damn. this may be a good decision but who am i goin have to talk to and relate to that was on my mind for a min 

TUESDAY

very entertaining. woke up went to breakfeast wit my girl chilled or whatever played some halo and fight nights. in the room. talked to some female friends on campus.  den like 6 of us went to giant and walmart. to pic up some things. came back and i saw candis was online. proceeded to just say hi following the updated rule book she had just told me bout the other nite. den she was like hey whatz up etc...... she was like she aint think she could go and just say hi. so i still got my buddy all 100% of her and not just a damn hi.

after that i was so fuckin tired. man shayla made some tacos in her apartment and i went up there to eat cuz i only do the cafeteria on special days like lobster crabs roast beef turkey etc etc. any other day im eating in the commons (student center)  did i mention i was tired ass shit. so tired i aint even make it back down to my room and shit. had to stay up there wit my girl. so its wed mornin and pretty much aint nothin happened goin back to sleep probably

IGHT its almost time for me to move in

SATURDAY

 owww damn what a party shayla moms sure do know how to throw a bday party for herself the dj, the caterer, and the damn alchohol, kid in a candy store and shit. heheheh

food was bomb my girl was lookin nice in the one strap and the lucayas i was lookin cute as shit wit the button up, nautica jeans, and the sun glasses man i wish i could have taken a pic damn i was cute. 

anyway man i had this thing its called a shooter or a jello shot. its like a little plastic cup and its like alchoholic jello and u take it as a shout. have u fuckeddddd up. if you hit enough of em. i had one. den i was sippen on the arbor mist all nite. cuz u cant get drunk in front of the fam,ily specialy when im underage party was aplus like i said after that i came home and went to bed and shit

SUNDAY

ight my ass had to get up for damn church and shit. two nites of partyin and im gott to get up for church on the day after i had some alcohol i aint have no hang over but i was tired as shit yall know my views on church and my hypocritical mother. ill go head and give u the run down. i was fallen asleep in church today cuz im tired its youth day and i just wasnt up to this. church aint for me. people cryin my father cryin and shit i dont wanna see that second time i in saw my father cry the first time was at my grandfathers funeral. i mean the reason y he  was  was acceptable but still i dont wanna go somewhere wher ima be preached about how sinning is wrong and we need to live our life of God and get off this worldy stuff when we all are sinners and nobodys perfect so we goin keep sinning no matter what.    and also i see the youtht dance ministries using moves off of hip hop and rap videos. thats a no no in my book i aint sayin its wrong but this is y i cant get down wit church

so after church i come home and my moms make us sandwiches that was nice for a change and they go to walmart and buy me a couple of things. that was even nicer.

movin on i load the truck up wit all my shit to move in 2morrow.

ight whats been botherin me majority of the day. shayla knows i write on her but she dont never read it. if she did she would know alot about y i do things i do.

im kind of confused now. candis who i am on aim wit as we speak is becomin more and more of someone i cant relate to more. we partied together and everything. its crazy as shit but i got my shay her beautiful self man shes everything a man wouldd want in a wife. its just that i aint ready for marriage right now. she has a problem wit dancin or expressin herself during music so ill just say she cant dance. shes not outgoin not a partier. not agressive. den u got candis shes all that or whatever loves gogo dances aggressove etc etc

no i have not cheated on my girl wit candis. if anything i can say that this is a test for me off my faithfulness  to my girl. can i  not pursue feelins for another girl i mean yes cuz she in hampton now but what if she was at umbc what if man could i. ure only forgaven one time for fuckin up in a relationship.  candis gets that friend love. i just gott to make sure it dont get no further than that i have had this talk wit her bout boundaries we understand or whatever but u never know if mood right somethinjump off its like oww shit what have i done. but if anything happen it wouldnt ge to far

honestly i couldnt let anything go far  i love shay to much but like i  said she at hampton now so everythings. cool  hopefully a strong secure friendship can be built in which we would look at each other like wtf if anything were to even be thinken bout happening she havin man issues wit her love and im just havin my monthly doubts. and shit. funny what love will do to someone. shay you just dont know how much i love you.

well back to talkin to candis on aim

when shay start readin this i aint goin here the end of it. o well though its my feelins and i want to express dem

Ight yall im sorry i havent been updatin it so ima give yall the quick run down

THURSDAY

Man it has to be illegal for a girl to look like a damn celebrity and be that cute. Im talkin bout my girl. i told her that shit 2 i told her to tone it down cuz i didnt appreciate her beauty outshowin minds. nothin much happened today went to the dentist get some feelins and shit. after that i was runnin around like shit came home went to wallmart wit my girl den i had to go back down dc to drop off a bag for my father at my grandmothers. den i had to come all the way back up just to drive out to st marys county wit my girl to pick her grandma up. got damnn thats alot. im still on the beauty of my girl lookin all fine and shit . but to end the day i was online as usuall talkin to candis and  shit.

FRIDAY

Got damn what a fuckin day. woke up parents bitchin over a bag of grass and shit outside that i needed to take to the curb for the trashman. finished wit that i went to get me some wings and fries and a starbucks caramel frapucino man dem frapucinos dem joints have me on a little high and shit, after that went home ate chilled got ready for the nites events at the cheff.

so i get  a call as im gettin into my truck its candis she needs a ride so i race down capitol heights scoop her and her cousin up. race back to the cheff. no problesm she thought i was goin be mad naww she coolight so i pull up and the damn allstars come in wit a damn army and shit lol

movin on all bands was tight im not goin threw this shit again its on pa palace if you interested in who played and shit highlights were ucb & pitch black  typical night at a gogo fights bammas gettin arrested ass cheeks everywhere titties bouncin straigh party or whatever girls freakin you know. im freakin my ass gettin grabbed im grabbin ass sorry shayla  hmm gues i in caught up 2 now its 3:05 pm and im chillen in my house.